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Ashley Cain reassures concerned fans he wouldn’t take his own life

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Ashley Cain had to reassure his followers that he was not planning to take his own life after sharing an emotional post about his late daughter Azaylia.

During the post he told fans he was ‘constantly haunted by her death’ and feels pain and sadness every day, as he admitted he doesn’t think it’ll ever get easier.

The Ex On The Beach star, 30, later reassured people he would ‘never give up on his life’, after fans got in touch to share their concern following his heartbreaking post.

Candid: Ashley Cain had to reassure his followers that he was not planning to take his own life after sharing an emotional post about his late daughter Azaylia

Candid: Ashley Cain had to reassure his followers that he was not planning to take his own life after sharing an emotional post about his late daughter Azaylia

Ashley, who lost Azaylia in April aged just eight months from leukaemia, said: ‘Just trying to combat a bit of this pain and sadness.’

‘That’s my kind of therapy. Saying this is tough is an understatement. It doesn’t get easier and there’s not a day where you don’t feel sad or on pain.

‘You have bad days. You have worst days and you just get constantly haunted by what happened.

‘I never think ‘I wonder when it’s going to get better?’ Cause I don’t feel sad for myself. I feel bad for my baby and what she had to go through. It haunts me. I guess I have to get strong, keep strong, move forward.’

Tragic: During the post he told fans he was 'constantly haunted by her death' and feels pain and sadness every day, as he admitted he doesn't think it'll ever get easier

Tragic: During the post he told fans he was ‘constantly haunted by her death’ and feels pain and sadness every day, as he admitted he doesn’t think it’ll ever get easier

The star then showed himself surrounded by darkness and looking defeated, said: ‘Talking about pain there. This is my life now. As a devoted dad you’re the most beautiful baby any father could wish for. Those s my life now.’

As he showed off Azalyia’s graveside, he added: ‘When everything in my life went bad I used to see her face. It made everything better. Now I can never do that again. I’ve got to live with that for the rest of my life.

‘And I’ll come down here every night and I’ll sit with her for hours or talk to her.

Reassurance: The Ex On The Beach star, 30, later reassured people he would 'never give up on his life', after fans got in touch to share their concern following his heartbreaking post

Reassurance: The Ex On The Beach star, 30, later reassured people he would ‘never give up on his life’, after fans got in touch to share their concern following his heartbreaking post

‘Do you know what hurts me the most? Obviously I miss her and I love her and that’s something I can deal with.

‘What hurts me the most is that eight months of her life were eight months of pain. Wires in her chest, wires down her nose. A life spent in an fing hospital room having chemotherapy operations every single day.

‘Not outside walking, not seeing her family, in a hospital room with procedures and even though I didn’t see it I know she was going through pain and I’ve got to live haunted by the fact that my daughter passed away in my arms, counting her breaths. I feel for that little girl so much.’

'Goodnight': As he showed off Azalyia's graveside, he added: 'When everything in my life went bad I used to see her face. It made everything better

‘Goodnight’: As he showed off Azalyia’s graveside, he added: ‘When everything in my life went bad I used to see her face. It made everything better

Ashley shared a picture of her grave adding god night god bless but his messages upset some fans who thought he might do something silly after getting emotional.

He had to respond online in another video message to reassure them he wasn’t going to take his own life.

He said: ‘I know I got my feelings out a bit tonight but I want everyone to know they don’t need to worry about me. My daughter fought so hard for her life I would never ever give mine up. 

‘I’m dedicating the rest of my life to fighting to set up this charity and to ensure that other families and children don’t have to fight as hard as we did. I will keep on going and keep on going until I’ve done all I can do.’ 

Elsewhere, Ashley’s partner Safiyya Vorajee shared a heart-breaking tribute to zaylia on her Instagram on Monday.

The 35-year-old uploaded a selfie she took of herself alongside her daughter as they lay together on a bed.

In the tribute, Safiyya said: ‘Azaylia. How do I cope without you?? The answer is I don’t, My heart hurts, my body feels numb, my inside feels painfully sore, I miss you so much. 

'How do I cope without you?' Elsewhere, Ashley's partner Safiyya Vorajee shared a heart-breaking tribute to zaylia on her Instagram on Monday

‘How do I cope without you?’ Elsewhere, Ashley’s partner Safiyya Vorajee shared a heart-breaking tribute to zaylia on her Instagram on Monday

‘Waking up every morning not being able to be a mummy to you crushes me, your smile, your snuggles, the way you touched my face and pulled my lips and did your pokey finger to get involved with touching things are only a fraction of what I miss about you.

‘Waking up, trying to Get out of bed while suffering with anxiety & depression, is a challenge alone. how do I cope with my day what do I do? because I should be doing everything for you baby. 

‘I sit and cry, i kiss your pictures, I make your new home pretty and light it up for you. I speak to you all the time, I no you hear me & I’m honoured to have you as my guardian Angel. 

Emotional: In the tribute, Safiyya said: 'Azaylia. How do I cope without you?? The answer is I don’t, My heart hurts, my body feels numb, my inside feels painfully sore, I miss you so much'

Emotional: In the tribute, Safiyya said: ‘Azaylia. How do I cope without you?? The answer is I don’t, My heart hurts, my body feels numb, my inside feels painfully sore, I miss you so much’

Struggle: Safiyya also uploaded a video onto her Instagram story on Monday night discussing how she is dealing with the loss of her daughter

Struggle: Safiyya also uploaded a video onto her Instagram story on Monday night discussing how she is dealing with the loss of her daughter

‘But honestly my grief is something that I don’t no where to start with, I no I will never be the same ever again until we’re together.

‘While I’m taking baby steps, each hour is not the same let alone each day, losing my little girl has changed my world, it now feels empty.

‘I’ve never had a hero before & Azaylia is my hero & when I do finally get myself together & manage to do simple things it’s because my hero inspires me. 

‘The pain of losing a child or a loved one is something that’s not spoken about very much, grief is painful, and very difficult, but always no there with you, look to the sky, look for the signs they are giving you, this is real they are still with us there just in paradise waiting for us now.

‘One day Azaylia mummy will be with you for eternity in paradise baby I love you princess.’

'Making it magical': Sharing a video in the dark, Ashley showed that he and partner Safiyya had placed rainbow lights and colourful fairy lights all around Azaylia's resting place

‘Making it magical’: Sharing a video in the dark, Ashley showed that he and partner Safiyya had placed rainbow lights and colourful fairy lights all around Azaylia’s resting place

Safiyya’s husband Ashley Cain responded to her heartfelt message with a single broken heart emoji. 

The tribute comes after Ashley shared a glimpse of the stunning light display he and partner Safiyya have set up at their daughter Azaylia’s grave. 

The Ex On The Beach star took to Instagram to show how he and his loved ones had made the plot ‘magical’ for his eight-month-old, as Safiyya admitted she’s been struggling with depression and anxiety after her death. 

Sharing a video in the dark, Ashley showed that he and Safiyya had placed an array of rainbow lights and colourful fairy lights all around Azaylia’s resting place.

For her: There were also electric candles and spinning children's night lights, as well as a lantern with Ashley, Safiyya and Azaylia printed on it

Until tomorrow: Ashley wrote over the video: 'We're making it magical for you baby', he then added: 'Good night princess.'

For her: There were also electric candles and spinning children’s night lights, as well as a lantern with Ashley, Safiyya and Azaylia printed on it

There were also electric candles and spinning children’s night lights, as well as a lantern with Ashley, Safiyya and Azaylia printed on it.

Ashley wrote over the video: ‘We’re making it magical for you baby’, he then added: ‘Good night princess.’  

Last month, Safiyya had their late daughter’s name tattooed on her wrist in a touching tribute.

Along with other women from her family, Safiyya had her baby’s full name, Azaylia Diamond Cain, inked onto her skin.

In memory: Safiyya took to her Instagram account to showd off her new inkingin tribute to her late daughter

In memory: Safiyya took to her Instagram account to showd off her new inkingin tribute to her late daughter

Safiyya took to her Instagram stories to share the sweet tribute with her followers in a short video.

Updating her well wishers, she wrote: ‘So some of the girls from the family have just been inked IN MEMORY Of my little girl Azaylia Diamond Cain.’

Written in all block capitals, the tattoo was of baby Azaylia’s full name across three lines down Safiyya’s wrist with a small drawing of a diamond beneath it.

In the video, the arms of three other women from the Cain family could also be seen with matching tribute tattoos.  

Sweet: Several  other family members had Azaylia's name inked onto her skin ahead of her funeral

Sweet: Several  other family members had Azaylia’s name inked onto her skin ahead of her funeral